These last few days have been so fucking hectic that words cannot even describe the way i am feeling.
Thursday : woke up to found out that my best friend couldnt come to mt birthday lunch because his brother was in a car accident.. which made me super worried but a little disappointed at the same time. Then, my birthday lunch and hunger games was the most amazing thing. I had so much fun that i was immediately tired that night.
Then, around 12.40am i found out the news. My grandma … I had to immediately pack my things and go on the 7 am plane to first fly to sydney to meet up with my dad then at 2pm fly to indonesia (8 hour flight). Meaning, due to packing and everything on the hectic Thursday night i ended up with 2 hours of sleep.
Once i arrived in Indonesia at 6pm (10pm Melbourne Time) we headed straight to the funeral place. There. i was overwhelmed.. I was never close with this grandma.. i neved thought that i would be this emotional over her death. However it hit me. Someone who loves me and looked after me that much. someone that i know.. my grandma has left me forever. and even if i wanted to i can never ever see her again.
So on this dramatic Thursday night / Friday i ended up at the shittest of shit hotels and ended up sleeping for 6 hours.
Saturday : The most boringest yet most depressing and stressed day. Grandma was sealed in her coffin today. Gilbert came to Indonesia. I sat around for 6 hours doing nothing. Dad was so tired that i have to do everything for him. and Me, im mentally and physically exhausted.
Life. Life was great up until that point.
RIP Grandma. Although i didnt know you that well. You have left a scar on my life, and i will remember you forever.